| Women Tell Their Stories - Sarah Gilmore - |
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| Hello, I do not know how to start this letter. My name is Sara Gilmore. I had an abortion when I was 16. I was at leas t 4-1/2 months along, if not further. It has had such an effect on my life. I still and will always HATE myself for killing my child. I am 42 now and still think about it everyday and I pray to G-D to forgive me for killing one of His precious miracles! What have I done? How could a person do this? My brother hauled hay all that summer and the money that he saved paid for killing my child. I did not tell my father. I know he knows. My mother took me to have it done. I can still feel the pain. It was like a vacuum sucking it out of me. Oh how it hurt! Not only physically, but mentally. I know that there is nothing that I can do about it now, but it still hurts. I try to think of ways to speak to young girls about it, but of course, you cannot talk about it in the schools, although they have sex classes. Like I said, I cannot bring that precious baby back. He is with G-d, but oh how I wish I could help explain to women and young girls that it will stay with you forever. I am glad that I could write this. It doesn't make it better but at least I know there are other women out there that feel the same way. So thank you for allowing me to write this letter. Sincerely, Sara Gilmore |