VICTIMS OF ABORTION SPEAK OUT
THE VOICE OF EXPERIENCE
"THERE IS NO SIN SO GREAT THAT GOD CANNOT FORGIVE NOR
WOUND SO DEEP THAT HIS LOVE CANNOT HEAL"
"Amen!" to your 'Emotional Trauma' letter in today's Courier. [click here to read]


Trauma  it never ends.  I write  without  name because I don't want  my birthed child to know there  was a half  brother/sister  that didn't get to be here.  Once,  I was asked to run for a political office, but  could not for fear someone  from my past  would emerge to  tattle.  My child would thus hate me, my Church  might remove me from position and how could I face my neighbors?  I  had never really saw my trauma from the outside before, unitl then, I had only lived with it internally.

I was 15. I lived at home. My alcoholic father made me have the abortion. I suppose I could have run away from home.  The father of this baby was 24.  Later,  he served time for statutory rape.  You never  get past this 'choice' we have the privilege to make here in the US.There's Mother's Day to remind you, your birthed child to remind you,  the aborted  baby's deathday  (they have no birthday)  to remember.  You  just, some- how, tote the weight of the guilt  and manage to get through this life with it.  (Did I mention that now that I am an adult, I really hate my father for his decision - that baby was his grandchild.  But I think I understand better why my Mother didn't love my Father.)

I went on to one other pregnany, it ended two months prematurely.  Doctors were surprized I got pregnant and more surprised I carried that far.  Of course, I denied another pregnancy.  Lies. Lies. Lies.  After years of pain, due to a rare form of fibroids inside the muscle,. I was  forced  to have a  hysterectomy at  age 37.

Trauma?  No,  it's not quick and over,  it goes on and on.  This disease never abates or heals, it's a terminal illness we carry to our grave with us. 

Sign me ...  Sorry.
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II Corinthians 1:3-4
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